Post by 51NN3R on Jun 15, 2014 17:09:11 GMT
this is a nice little video on the subject of "are we real?"
i once had the idea that i was a player in a game not unlike the role-playing games on-line,i noticed how certain people would behave in a command response kind of way and could not function when you put them in a philosophical situation,my closest friend would fall into a deep state of confusion and sleepiness whilst trying to absorb the things i would show her,i became suspicious that she may not be real,i thought that she was real in about the first 2 years of my knowing her but then replaced by a command response program once i had separated myself from society,i had developed a hatred and fear of the outside world and so she would do everything for me,i realized after a short time that i was entirely the only one who saw her in person and although i would talk to my on-line friends about her - i would always have an uncomfortable feeling that she was a figment of my imagination and that all of my needs like groceries and medications for asthma and anxiety were simply manifesting through my belief that she was doing this for me,it didn't take long for me to think the same of my on-line friends until i started to feel the deep dark cold emptiness of believing i was completely alone in my personal reality..
time rolled on and i refused to go outside for about 6 years,don't get me wrong here - i did have to go outside when i moved house three times but in all of those times she took care of everything and my interacting with others was almost 0,
i was left with only one resolve 'increase my knowledge and maybe i will learn how to deal with this situation as every psychiatrist and psychologist i had ever been to had no idea of what i was talking about and their first move was to prescribe prescribe prescribe,i was put on all kinds of anti depressants and anti psychotics but i found tranquilizers were slightly helpful,
in my view you need to do a lot of research on any medication you are prescribed before you take them regardless of what the doctor says,i noticed after a time of refusing to take the medications - that i had never dealt with my underlying anxiety as i was always in a kind of stoned state of mind and so when i stopped medication my life turned into a personal hell,an explosion of every emotion from experiences had during and before my stonkered state came all at once and one by one i dealt with them up until i learned how to control my emotion,i learned that i could choose how to feel and this set me free to absorb the information i needed,
i eventually came to believe that some people are real and others are fillers/command response units,i came to the conclusion that the part of me that is awareness is the same as the part of you that you feel is you existing and that each of us is at a certain point of understanding as to what this whole thing is about,
hence i thought there is no point in trying to explain this to your family or friends as they may not be ready to begin leaving this game yet and you will become an outcast,i realized that it is instead a better idea to simply post these ideas/thoughts on a forum so that others who are in the process of leaving this game can gain knowledge from others and most of all realize that "we are not alone in our struggle"
this was a previous understanding of mine, i no longer look at reality as a sort of game but i put this here for those who are at that point of thinking
i once had the idea that i was a player in a game not unlike the role-playing games on-line,i noticed how certain people would behave in a command response kind of way and could not function when you put them in a philosophical situation,my closest friend would fall into a deep state of confusion and sleepiness whilst trying to absorb the things i would show her,i became suspicious that she may not be real,i thought that she was real in about the first 2 years of my knowing her but then replaced by a command response program once i had separated myself from society,i had developed a hatred and fear of the outside world and so she would do everything for me,i realized after a short time that i was entirely the only one who saw her in person and although i would talk to my on-line friends about her - i would always have an uncomfortable feeling that she was a figment of my imagination and that all of my needs like groceries and medications for asthma and anxiety were simply manifesting through my belief that she was doing this for me,it didn't take long for me to think the same of my on-line friends until i started to feel the deep dark cold emptiness of believing i was completely alone in my personal reality..
time rolled on and i refused to go outside for about 6 years,don't get me wrong here - i did have to go outside when i moved house three times but in all of those times she took care of everything and my interacting with others was almost 0,
i was left with only one resolve 'increase my knowledge and maybe i will learn how to deal with this situation as every psychiatrist and psychologist i had ever been to had no idea of what i was talking about and their first move was to prescribe prescribe prescribe,i was put on all kinds of anti depressants and anti psychotics but i found tranquilizers were slightly helpful,
in my view you need to do a lot of research on any medication you are prescribed before you take them regardless of what the doctor says,i noticed after a time of refusing to take the medications - that i had never dealt with my underlying anxiety as i was always in a kind of stoned state of mind and so when i stopped medication my life turned into a personal hell,an explosion of every emotion from experiences had during and before my stonkered state came all at once and one by one i dealt with them up until i learned how to control my emotion,i learned that i could choose how to feel and this set me free to absorb the information i needed,
i eventually came to believe that some people are real and others are fillers/command response units,i came to the conclusion that the part of me that is awareness is the same as the part of you that you feel is you existing and that each of us is at a certain point of understanding as to what this whole thing is about,
hence i thought there is no point in trying to explain this to your family or friends as they may not be ready to begin leaving this game yet and you will become an outcast,i realized that it is instead a better idea to simply post these ideas/thoughts on a forum so that others who are in the process of leaving this game can gain knowledge from others and most of all realize that "we are not alone in our struggle"
this was a previous understanding of mine, i no longer look at reality as a sort of game but i put this here for those who are at that point of thinking
